I have training in three hours. That means I have 3 more hours to waste. And 3 more hours to be bored. I really hate that I have to stay here in the library for three hours. I mean, I do enjoy paying a visit here (sometimes), and of course the fact that we have free internet access is a double plus bonus for me. But seriously! I'm starting to look like a geek. I mean, to everybody else, knowing that I've been staying in the library is probably making them think that I'm all that, but I'm not.
I plan on reviewing all my test for tom and friday today, since on thursday, not only do I have a 3-5pm P.E class, but I also feel the need for another training. Dec. 4 (the continuation of the elimination) is coming up, and I don't want to suck.
I know that we did won twice from that 3 rounds, but seriously, we could've done better if only I did better. I don't want to be a burden for the group.
.... God, I'm so freakin' hungry, but I'm in diet. Yesterday, I practically ate a galloon of chocalates, and for this, I have to starve today.
Damn it, I need to be more consistent with this dieting/starving thing.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Round one
Good Lord! The first round of the debate has just finished, walking towards the school earlier this day I felt like I was going to be eaten alive. I'm still as nervous as hell, given that most of the debaters here today are experienced and I on the other hand am a newbie- in all sense of the word. The only consolation I have is that my team mates are really great and they could at least help and guide me not to make a fool out of myself.
We won the first round, but I'm not sure whether we should take credit on that or not. True that we did presented a good case and in my opinion our cases are better than the government side of the debate, but still there are this so many factors why they lost. Firstly, it could be because they didn't want to win on the first round- given that its a power match they'd probably want to loose first and then work their way to the top.
Or the adj could think that if she decided to let the other team win that she might be accused of being biased. Or maybe we just did better that the other team.
Anyway, I'm not keeping my hopes up as to avoid any kind of depression later. I really think that anticipating something bad would help you not to be upset and that if it turns out okay, you may even be surprised (in a good way).
Round two is coming up... GOD HELP US!!
We won the first round, but I'm not sure whether we should take credit on that or not. True that we did presented a good case and in my opinion our cases are better than the government side of the debate, but still there are this so many factors why they lost. Firstly, it could be because they didn't want to win on the first round- given that its a power match they'd probably want to loose first and then work their way to the top.
Or the adj could think that if she decided to let the other team win that she might be accused of being biased. Or maybe we just did better that the other team.
Anyway, I'm not keeping my hopes up as to avoid any kind of depression later. I really think that anticipating something bad would help you not to be upset and that if it turns out okay, you may even be surprised (in a good way).
Round two is coming up... GOD HELP US!!
Monday, November 14, 2005
no focus.
It's a monday and I'm still at school though my class actually ended at 11am. I'm still here for the debate training, I really like debating- its something that I think I could do good at especially if I keep on training. Plus the people there are nice, they're really friendly, so it's easier for me to be more comfortable.
I was actually feeling low today. For no apparent reason till I decided to contemplate the reason for my sudden odd feeling of loneliness. I realized that the problem was... ME. I was feeling disappointed towards myself. I've been aiming to do good in college, but then I don't know what's with me but I just seem to always loose my focus. I set up this goals and do almost everything but-- ARGH!
I would borrow some books, or open them, then when its time to read, my mind just won't cooperate. Yea, its like NINGAS KUGON, only this time:1. I'm fully aware of it 2. I don't want it 3. and it takes place in about a snap of a finger.
One minute I'm determined as hell, the next, I still am but I just can't focus. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?!!
I was actually feeling low today. For no apparent reason till I decided to contemplate the reason for my sudden odd feeling of loneliness. I realized that the problem was... ME. I was feeling disappointed towards myself. I've been aiming to do good in college, but then I don't know what's with me but I just seem to always loose my focus. I set up this goals and do almost everything but-- ARGH!
I would borrow some books, or open them, then when its time to read, my mind just won't cooperate. Yea, its like NINGAS KUGON, only this time:1. I'm fully aware of it 2. I don't want it 3. and it takes place in about a snap of a finger.
One minute I'm determined as hell, the next, I still am but I just can't focus. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?!!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
my dad's bday
Well, I'd say the party went on well, but the place was cramped! And I mean this in the most literal sense. Yung pila for the food parang pila sa SSS. And I'm not even sure why everbody had to fall in line to get food, if they'll be going after just one dish?!? And so this is my sister's and mine's - arguement on not staying in line.
But hey, we've all enjoyed the shindig. The acoustic band is really nice, the gay people are really funny but I just really wish that my cousins didn't left so early. After the stand-up comedy, it was actually supposed to be a disco thing. and heck, before the stand-up comedy even finished people are already dancing and it was fun. But if my cousins are there, it would've been such a blast. Plus, most of the peepz left there to go dancing are ... well, they're not old but their choice of songs just shows how much they love BALLROOM!
On the bright side, even though my cousins (from the mother side of the family)left, I have 3 more cousins (from dad's side) and the good thing about them is that they're game. So the 4 of us headed to the dance floor and had a good time.
But hey, we've all enjoyed the shindig. The acoustic band is really nice, the gay people are really funny but I just really wish that my cousins didn't left so early. After the stand-up comedy, it was actually supposed to be a disco thing. and heck, before the stand-up comedy even finished people are already dancing and it was fun. But if my cousins are there, it would've been such a blast. Plus, most of the peepz left there to go dancing are ... well, they're not old but their choice of songs just shows how much they love BALLROOM!
On the bright side, even though my cousins (from the mother side of the family)left, I have 3 more cousins (from dad's side) and the good thing about them is that they're game. So the 4 of us headed to the dance floor and had a good time.
Friday, November 04, 2005
Missed attendance
I wasn't able to attend today's debate mtg/training. I just received the text last night and I've been thinking whether I should go or not. I really do want to go, and I don't want the people there to think that I'm being irresponsible and that I'm not committed to this thing- coz I am. I think.
Anyway, my dad will be having this really big bday party today, with a band and everything. We've even teased him of having a debut because of the number of guests, and just the whole preparation of the party is. And this is actually my reason why I wasn't able to attend, if I go there, I'll come home looking all tired then the party is till really late or probably past midnight and I need to have my energy for that. I just really hope that I won't be disappointing anyone. Since, the last time we had a meeting, I was also absent.
I'm in so big trouble. But I'm gonna try to make up for the times I wasn't able to come, so I'll probably resolve to attending for like 4 or 5 times a week. Hmm. hope that'll ready me for the debate series.
Anyway, my dad will be having this really big bday party today, with a band and everything. We've even teased him of having a debut because of the number of guests, and just the whole preparation of the party is. And this is actually my reason why I wasn't able to attend, if I go there, I'll come home looking all tired then the party is till really late or probably past midnight and I need to have my energy for that. I just really hope that I won't be disappointing anyone. Since, the last time we had a meeting, I was also absent.
I'm in so big trouble. But I'm gonna try to make up for the times I wasn't able to come, so I'll probably resolve to attending for like 4 or 5 times a week. Hmm. hope that'll ready me for the debate series.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
busted university computers
I waited for a good four hours doing nothing aside from getting wet by the rain and getting all sweaty because the heat of the sun (yes, the weather sucks. the sun is high and yet the rain keeps pouring) just so I could spend another hour standing in line and what did a I gain from it? Nothing (with a capital N). It was supposed to be our enrollment, and I've been carrying my tuition fee on my pocket for hours- because of this none of us could go anywhere for the fear of getting robbed, we even wasted good money to eat for an early lunch also because of the enrollment. TAPOS BIGLANG CANCELLED!! My god, the effort noh!
The reason for this, to what I've heard is their faulty computer system, well I can't blame them for that, but they should've had the desency to tell us sooner. Also because of this busted comp system, I can't view my grades! Kc nman, its online, e the school knows nman that their comp system is having a prob, d man lng nila ginawan ng paraan. Grabe na toh ah! Hmp. mka lipat nlang kaya sa STI or AMA. (hehehe.)
The reason for this, to what I've heard is their faulty computer system, well I can't blame them for that, but they should've had the desency to tell us sooner. Also because of this busted comp system, I can't view my grades! Kc nman, its online, e the school knows nman that their comp system is having a prob, d man lng nila ginawan ng paraan. Grabe na toh ah! Hmp. mka lipat nlang kaya sa STI or AMA. (hehehe.)
Monday, October 17, 2005
Bubbles
Bubbles
Bubbles pop and they are gone
Just like that they are non-existant
without a trace that they once were there
now I wonder am I like them?
If one day I'm not here
will someone notice..
that I'm gone?
-October, 2004
Bubbles pop and they are gone
Just like that they are non-existant
without a trace that they once were there
now I wonder am I like them?
If one day I'm not here
will someone notice..
that I'm gone?
-October, 2004
boredom, swimming, writing
To this day, it is still a big mystery to me, as to when exactly vacation became a bad thing in my vocabulary. Boredom has always been a friendly word to me and I've always welcomed its presence and now all of a sudden the mention of a 'break' or a vacation doesn't have the usual ring to is as before.
I guess I'm really changing- a lot. A few years back, the idea of going swimming is like a happy dream and once I get in the pool, I never want to go home. But now, the sight of a pool does not even excite me in the slightest bit. Actually nothing is of my interest anymore... Except ofcourse of a computer- and its not even about the computer NOR the internet. It's about writing.
The only reason why I can't live without a computer is because I can't live without writing. I'm too lazy to pick up a pen and paper and frankly with those, nothing comes into my mind. and the thing about the net is because I like to read and post the stuff that I write.
Most people thinks that I'm a computer/net addict or something, where in fact I barely know anything about it.. except of course certain technicalities which only requires nothing but logic and a few basic background knowledge which has been provided to me during my highschool years. I would really love to be enrolled in a writing workshop, because writing is where my passion lies. I must admit to the fact that I'm not very good in writing - but only because my vocabulary is limited. I'm not so good on deep/difficult/big words, but I can proudly say that I have good ideas and I can expound my limited vocabulary through my ideas. I've always dreamt of becoming a writer, and the dream still lives with me. I guess writing is the one thing that I could never loose interest to.
I guess I'm really changing- a lot. A few years back, the idea of going swimming is like a happy dream and once I get in the pool, I never want to go home. But now, the sight of a pool does not even excite me in the slightest bit. Actually nothing is of my interest anymore... Except ofcourse of a computer- and its not even about the computer NOR the internet. It's about writing.
The only reason why I can't live without a computer is because I can't live without writing. I'm too lazy to pick up a pen and paper and frankly with those, nothing comes into my mind. and the thing about the net is because I like to read and post the stuff that I write.
Most people thinks that I'm a computer/net addict or something, where in fact I barely know anything about it.. except of course certain technicalities which only requires nothing but logic and a few basic background knowledge which has been provided to me during my highschool years. I would really love to be enrolled in a writing workshop, because writing is where my passion lies. I must admit to the fact that I'm not very good in writing - but only because my vocabulary is limited. I'm not so good on deep/difficult/big words, but I can proudly say that I have good ideas and I can expound my limited vocabulary through my ideas. I've always dreamt of becoming a writer, and the dream still lives with me. I guess writing is the one thing that I could never loose interest to.
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Who should be ruling our country?
I'm not a patriot, and who in this time is? But this does not mean that I have no concern for my country. Is it wrong if I say that the problem of this country is it's people? Because I think it is.
Ever heard of anyone saying- love the country, nevermind the citizens? Well if you haven't, then I'm saying it now so listen to me.
Heroes who has lived decades ago- we believe has died and suffered for the freedom of the country and for the sake of its people. Now I am here to detest this people whom they say that this heroes died for. This people that I'm talking about is US. Yes, truly I am not exempting myself for if I do such a thing I would be a hypocrite.
The problem in this country is not the government but the people. The Philippines is said to be a country of democracy, it is a country where its the citizens voice rules over everything. And yet, we blame the officials for what has become of us. Who placed them in their positions in the first place?! And don't give me that crap that they cheated their way to position, for all of us knows for a fact that every one of them has cheated and used money one way or the other- its all just a battle of who has the most money and whose the smarter one who knows how to use it.
I'm only a teenager, a freshman college student and have yet to face the real world and its complexities, but already I think the problem here is that the people has stopped using their brains.
When election comes, they vote for:
1. The one who is most likely to win
Why: Because they think that if they vote the one who is more unlikely to win is that they would only be wasting their ONE vote. But has it crossed their minds that thousands of people are thinking of the same thing, that their one vote does not matter and if only they used it, things would've been different.
2.The one who gives them money
Why: Because to be able to vote for the person you want in position can't be served on the table and feed your family nor can it buy you a case of beer or a stick of cigarette. And so I wonder, does a few minutes of bliss worth the fact that you've let an unworthy person have in his hands the future of all you've been working for?
3. The most popular one
Why: I've always wondered how did elections became a popularity contest. For some reason, people tend to believe that the most popular one is the best one and is the one fit for the job. In my own opinion, most of these people are popular because they've chosen to make use of their name and faces as public figures and used commercial ads and posters to make themselves familiar in a way where people would actually be contented of voting them for good sound of their name and forget to question what they've done and what they can do.
In my opinion they should impose a law where only college or at least highschool graduates could run for office. The legislative office should be more strict and I really believe that college graduates and not high school drop outs should be imposing the laws of the country. I do not mean to discriminate, but we are talking about laws and we are talking about governing a whole country. How in God's name are you going to rule over people who has more brains than you are?
I'm aware to the fact that diplomas are not the only way to measure one's capacity and knowledge but still, to have a diploma means to have the proper training on how to you use what you know. I mean, if a person is really determined to run for a position then go study! Have what it takes, have what is needed.
Our problem in this country, is that citizens are not using their brains by electing the people who doesn't have a brain.
Corruption CAN NEVER be eliminated, but at least have the decency to do something in your turn of service- and I think that is the difference between an educated official from a ... Not so educated one.
Ever heard of anyone saying- love the country, nevermind the citizens? Well if you haven't, then I'm saying it now so listen to me.
Heroes who has lived decades ago- we believe has died and suffered for the freedom of the country and for the sake of its people. Now I am here to detest this people whom they say that this heroes died for. This people that I'm talking about is US. Yes, truly I am not exempting myself for if I do such a thing I would be a hypocrite.
The problem in this country is not the government but the people. The Philippines is said to be a country of democracy, it is a country where its the citizens voice rules over everything. And yet, we blame the officials for what has become of us. Who placed them in their positions in the first place?! And don't give me that crap that they cheated their way to position, for all of us knows for a fact that every one of them has cheated and used money one way or the other- its all just a battle of who has the most money and whose the smarter one who knows how to use it.
I'm only a teenager, a freshman college student and have yet to face the real world and its complexities, but already I think the problem here is that the people has stopped using their brains.
When election comes, they vote for:
1. The one who is most likely to win
Why: Because they think that if they vote the one who is more unlikely to win is that they would only be wasting their ONE vote. But has it crossed their minds that thousands of people are thinking of the same thing, that their one vote does not matter and if only they used it, things would've been different.
2.The one who gives them money
Why: Because to be able to vote for the person you want in position can't be served on the table and feed your family nor can it buy you a case of beer or a stick of cigarette. And so I wonder, does a few minutes of bliss worth the fact that you've let an unworthy person have in his hands the future of all you've been working for?
3. The most popular one
Why: I've always wondered how did elections became a popularity contest. For some reason, people tend to believe that the most popular one is the best one and is the one fit for the job. In my own opinion, most of these people are popular because they've chosen to make use of their name and faces as public figures and used commercial ads and posters to make themselves familiar in a way where people would actually be contented of voting them for good sound of their name and forget to question what they've done and what they can do.
In my opinion they should impose a law where only college or at least highschool graduates could run for office. The legislative office should be more strict and I really believe that college graduates and not high school drop outs should be imposing the laws of the country. I do not mean to discriminate, but we are talking about laws and we are talking about governing a whole country. How in God's name are you going to rule over people who has more brains than you are?
I'm aware to the fact that diplomas are not the only way to measure one's capacity and knowledge but still, to have a diploma means to have the proper training on how to you use what you know. I mean, if a person is really determined to run for a position then go study! Have what it takes, have what is needed.
Our problem in this country, is that citizens are not using their brains by electing the people who doesn't have a brain.
Corruption CAN NEVER be eliminated, but at least have the decency to do something in your turn of service- and I think that is the difference between an educated official from a ... Not so educated one.
why blog
Today when I got home, I realized the only thing that I do on net is to read fanfics, and yet people all view me as a net addict. I've wondered what else internet is of use to me aside from my copy and paste assignments and wishful dreams came to life through fanfictions, this is now the reason why I thought of a blog. I've had one before but I've never placed much attention to it. Now, I realize, since I always have this thoughts on my mind and I've always been meaning to write them down but too lazy to do so, at least I could start it here, aye?!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)