no focus.

It's a monday and I'm still at school though my class actually ended at 11am. I'm still here for the debate training, I really like debating- its something that I think I could do good at especially if I keep on training. Plus the people there are nice, they're really friendly, so it's easier for me to be more comfortable.

I was actually feeling low today. For no apparent reason till I decided to contemplate the reason for my sudden odd feeling of loneliness. I realized that the problem was... ME. I was feeling disappointed towards myself. I've been aiming to do good in college, but then I don't know what's with me but I just seem to always loose my focus. I set up this goals and do almost everything but-- ARGH!

I would borrow some books, or open them, then when its time to read, my mind just won't cooperate. Yea, its like NINGAS KUGON, only this time:1. I'm fully aware of it 2. I don't want it 3. and it takes place in about a snap of a finger.

One minute I'm determined as hell, the next, I still am but I just can't focus. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?!!