pathetic!!

Wala lang. Reflecting on yesterday's senti moments, naiisip ko lang I was really pathetic, my gosh. Oh well, I've moved on- or so I say. hahaha!!! bzta no more pathetic words and feelings for me, I should be happy for him besides kung di ko tlaga carry I'd just look on the bright side... mag bebreak din sila. but in a more serious note- the bright side is, now I have a reason to stop pinning for that one person. Pero kc, the problem with me is, its not that I've really been pinning on him, but I'm using that whole 'pinning for him' thing as an excuse and as a defense mechanism for me. Lam mo na, to not let my guard down. Haay buhay, parang life. Leche.

affected

I hate myself. I can't believe I'm getting this affected over someone I barely know. Yes, it is true that I've had a crush in him for like forever, but still, I never thought of myself to be one of those girls who gets all bummed up when someone they like is apparently with someone else. My philosophy on such things has always been - "crush LANG yan, no biggie." but then this happens. I think I may have been pinning for him for far too long.

My brain is actually screaming at me right now, for being affected this much, since that person and I have now been a stranger to each other. But then my logic wouldn't take away what I feel. I don't even know what to call it, all I know is that I feel a lump on my throat that I can't seem to remove. Maye I'm just really blinded by him. Maybe I'm affected not really by him but the image of him that I've got so perfectly in my imagination. - Damn, I hate my senti moments.