half crazy song!!

waah!! na-addict na ko sa "half crazy" by freestyle. I really love it!! and evidence of this is, it actually inspired me to continue one of my fics! hehe. Hopefully, I'd get more inspiration for me to finish this fic... haay..

ironic. good deed turned bad.

MY LINE HAS JUST BEEN CUT OFF. AGAIN.

This time, its really insane. Globe Network, says I have to pay 2thousand just so I could activate my phone again, so meaning, I still have tons to pay afterwards. Now, the bad thing here is this- I was actually trying to minimize my bill, and such good intentions is what led me into this mess.

I've been using UNLI, thinking that since unlimited for 5 days is only 50 pesos, and that the only people that I text are globe subscribers also, then I'm definitely saving up. So I keep on using UNLI, thinking such an act would put the bars to 800 only (that's my plan amount). Only to learn that every 50 pesos that I pay for unli is not under the 800 which we pay monthly but is added on top of it. Which is such a shame coz I barely text other people who are not using globe- meaning, I barely touched that 800. Damn.

ramblings from xmas.

At last! gumana na din ang blogger.com! Well, katatapos lang ng Christmas. It wasn't as enjoyable as it used to be. Lunchtime, we were at my tita letty's place (as always), it was getting kinda boring till we decided to be "birit queens" for the day and take TONS of pictures-- and so the fun started, but then it had to be cut short (for me) coz me and my family had to leave to go to my father side's family. And so we went there hoping that we get to leave earlier so we could join my cousin Renz' 7th bday party and then maybe go to the mall with my cousins afterwards. which of course did not happen coz my other relatives took forever to arrive.. But that was okay nonetheless, it was still fun and we still tried to go to Renz' bday, even if it was already pass 9pm. Sadly, my other cousins have left already.

Now that I think about it, its probably a blessing in disguise that we didn't make it to the mall that day, coz the next day I had a really high fever for some unknown reason. So now, here I am, I've just recovered from my "sudden fever" and am bored to death.

OATH TO SELF

I would never let an opportunity pass me by again.
I need to believe in myself more, in order for me to prove something.
I can't be all so determined and then back-out all of a sudden,
I will never be anywhere if I'm always like this.
I would finish all that I would start and I will end it with grace and pride.
I have to go after what I want, no mater what.
I would do things my way and I would never again discourage myself on anything-
that I know I want to do.

My socialization would be limited only to friendship.
Anything more than that would have to wait.
If such relationship still does occur- it can NEVER trespass my priorities.
Dreams first.

I would prove myself- for my own sake and self-worth.
I would not live on what if's.

My career is going to start now
and I'm gonna be as driven as I can be to achieve my goals.
Nothing- not even myself, can stop me.

tama ba?

I didn't take part in the AB series. When I made the decision, I was a hundred percent sure of what I want. And yet, I feel like I'm about to miss out on such great opportunity and I wonder if I did the right thing.

I just told my friend that I'd like for us to stay just as friends. For weeks now, I have been so sure of that decision, and yet now that I've told him so (not in person) I feel guilty. Sad even.

Isn't it that I'm supposed to be happy of my decisions? But I'm not. The weird thing is, if I was given the chance to go back in time, faced with the same situations and circumstances, I would have still done the same things.

Cguro nga, we don't always have to like the things we do. How ironic. I did these things into thinking, I would like it. Haay..