All that I want

I want to laugh
I want to cry
I want to fall in love

I’d like to feel those butterflies
I’d let my heart go breakin’

I want to worry
I want to care
I want to start the nagging

I’d like that smile to be for me
I’d let my tears fall for you

I want to fight
I want to scream
I want the sleepless nights

I’d like to know if you’re okay
I’d let you know if I’m alright

I want that moment
I want that heart break
I want that feeling

I want to fall in love

I am beautiful

Created: May 27, 2007

In this mirror
I see magic
There’s no horror
It’s all basic

A pair of eyes
So filled with hope
Red chapped lips
With unwavering smile

It is neither perfect
Nor is it tragic
But it’s still magic
Because it’s there
It’s beautiful
And it’s me.

Have you ever had those moments, when you look at the mirror and you find the person on the other side truly beautiful? Well I have. It is not about being vain nor being conceited, it is about loving the fact of being ones self.

I have moments when I’m so insecure and I find myself hideous. Times, when I look at the mirror and hate the person staring back. But those are moments when I know that I’m just self conscious and just downright stupid.

Moments like this, on the other hand. Days when I find myself utterly beautiful, are days when my head thinks more clearly. These are the days when I love myself a little bit more than I used to. So when the day comes and I have moved from this moment to being insecure and miserable again, I would just read this entry again and I would remind myself that I’m beautiful. Others may not see that, I may not even see that sometimes, but there is no universal standard for beauty. BUT. There is a universal standard for feeling beautiful—and that is, loving yourself with all your flaws and imperfections. Because those things are the reason you are who you are.

I think I'm being played..

"The game"

You’re a player
But I’m no gambler
I like playing
If it means I’m winning

I just can’t beat you
You’re the master of your game
And I’m being kinda lame
For playing the pawn
In your one man game

But I’m a quick learner
I’m turning into quite a player
I have a royal flush
Are you feeling the rush?
I know your game
I’m reading it all the same
Your moves don’t alter
Your cards won’t matter
Coz right now I’m declaring
That it’s game over.

Love and Friendship part 4

Created: May 16, 2007

Si Friendship F ay kasalukuyang may bago ng "prospects" (with s) dahil dalawa ang bago niyang chuva. Although mahal pa din daw nya si fafa S, mukhang nakaka move on na sya. Pag dating talaga sa love, bilib ako dito kay Friendship F.

Si Friendship I naman ay hanggang ngayon puro kagagahan pa din ang ginagawa sa buhay. Sabi ni Venj sa last comment nya sa part 3 of this series, dapat daw bigyan na ng partner si Friendship I, yun nga lang pano mangyayari yun kung wala talaga. Si Friendship I, sa wakas ay may natitipuhan na din. Let's call that person Mr. C. Yun nga lang, etong si Friendship I ay nagbibigay ng mixed signals kay Mr. C, tipong kung titignan ay mukhang pinaglalaruan lang nya si Mr. C. But that's definitely not the case. Sadyang may innate and unconscious way lang si Friendship I to sabotage any potential relationship. Etong si Friendship I, dapat lakasan nalang nya ang loob nya ang go for what she wants. It's not like she's going to have to take the whole thing seriously, all she has to do is give this thing a chance. Come what way. Basta lang wag na nya hadlangan ang mga bagay bagay. Lokaloka ka din kasi tong si Friendship I eh! ewan ko ba.

Love and Friendship part 3

Created: April 27,, 2007

Updates on FRIENDSHIP A and B. Ayon, awa ng dyos, friends pa din cla. Walang kwenta! ahaha. ewan ko ba, everyone is going to be "relieved" once one of them speaks up. Ako naman sabi ko kay friendship A, kung wala pang development or progress in the next few months, then you have no more hope. Kaya naman hanap na ng ibang papa.

Friendship C, D and E- are now erased in this series. wala ng maganda pang mangyayari sa kanila kaya di na dapat pag usapan pa.

Moving on to Friendship F. Si Friendship F ay mayroon fafa S. Si fafa S ay kaka break lang sa kanya significant other kaya naman si friendship F who happens to be a very good friend of mine, 'affected' daw. Sabi nya, sad sya for fafa S. Sabi ko naman, dapat syang matuwa! hahahaha. nagpaka biatch daw ba?

Si Friendship G and H naman. Well, maraming issues involving them. Marami kasing issue si friendhip H. Pero mukhang hindi yun nakikita ni friendship G. Sabi ng marami gay daw si friendship H sabi naman ng ilan hindi daw. Character wise, swak naman sila.Last time I saw them, they're doing great. mukhang M.U forever sila.

Si Friendship I naman ang may pinaka nakaka bwisit na love life. Sa dami ng na link na, wala atang makapag succeed. I'll add more details on the story of friendship I sa susunod. Pag may maganda ganda ng pangyayari sa buhay nya.

Ayos na pala toh.

Ayos na pala ang blogger!!! amp.

I made a new blog in multiply because I couldn't access this damn site. I miss blogging here. I like blogging here. So.. I'm gonna try to activate this site again. I'm gonna keep on blogging here for about a few more weeks and if it doesn't get busted then I'm gonna screw my other blogsite so I can just focus on one.